Utopia

Utopia |yoōˈtōpēə| (also utopia)
noun
an imagined place or state of things in which everything is perfect. The word was first used in the book Utopia (1516) by Sir Thomas More.

Yess, me living in utopia. Dreaming that everything is awesome and perfect, wishing nothing bad is going to happen.





For now me is just gonna stuff myself with ample of work and less talk. Occupy myself with alot of serious things and start to hope I stop being a slacker and loser. Save up for all the trips happening end of the year and next year! YAY. Bro's leaving sg this saturday and it kind of pains to see the boxes and luggage already packed at home. Now there'll be no more jokes and laughing at home, no more vulgarities and angry scoldings. No one help me clean cookie, no one talk to me, laugh with me. Gotta get used, srsly.

Need to do something more constructive rather than wasting my life away. SIGHSS. Hate growing up. :(
Yess, am sucha airy-fairy...

Lacey baby

Photobucket is surprisingly not working and I need to rush to bed so i'm not gonna wait for the damn page to load. But at the same time am excited to show u guys pinky's new clothes, lacey. actually am consider to give it back it's identity which is the black cover but can't bear to... :(

Okay time for bed, if not you'll really not see me at examination hall anymore. good night!

P.S> I was never a VERY down-to-earth person, unless you're about boys, money or marriage. HAHA. Kyr would nod her head uncontrollably to this post-script. awesome, am I not?? BOWL! hahaha.

Luvvvs.

P.S.S> Anyway, after halloween i've been using the doggie ears as my headband since my ribbon one broke into two a few days ago. Been lazy to visit the hair accessories store and I technically am being laughed by friends my brother brings home! Just thought you'd wanna know in case you're wondering why is this crazy woman wearing a stupid dog ear headband in the middle of the night.

Black halloween

I was looking totally black today but it wasn't complete without bb looking black. Sighss. The party was a fun one, but i was in my heels so i couldn't have fun with the games :( but i guess i caught everyone with my cutesy ears, whee!





Suddenly ran out of words in my mind and I couldn't think! maybe am being too excited for the trips that I'll be taking next year! i REALLY can't wait for this year to end, though its been quite good for me! Life might be getting a little tough next year with having to adapt to new school environment, new classmates, and my bro would be overseas for a year! can't believe all that's happening so soon.

lets hope i get used to everything!

Sidetracked. AM FEELING SO DAMN BAD NOW. really. my throat is REALLY burning which i believe the blood came from, and my ulcer is as painful as EVER. I cannot just describe how much damn friggin' pain i'm in right now and i get pissed off by the littlest thing.





was playing with instant photos so didn't have much to put up here. hope you're enjoying your halloween while i CONTINUE being tormented by ulcer and sore throat. :(

Halloween search

Back with disappointment, in search of halloween gears but back with none. SIGHSS. Had a fun time with kyr though! Like esp the part we screamed like retards when we see snails and disgusting insects, we scream and ran our way down the bridge and freaked people behind us. wahha. evil like that. Were also laughing crazily all the way cause we were challenging each other to put on the dog mask and board the bus. hahhaa. really funneee. great fun right before O level..


So cuteee. Bowlcut with headgear always look damn cute. Anyway her hair don't look like some emoshit-ish doggy hairstyle, its just that the headgear is pushing the fringe to look like emo hair. wahaa. okay enough of disclaimers....


New headband for me, wheee~ gonna be some ahllianzxzx who wear headband, hehezxzx.


And lastly the doggie ear, cat ear went out of stock, SO DEPRESSING, SO...

Sighsss. :( i feel so weird today though..

P.S.: my page is filled with my pouting face and guess what's my excuse? A mega huge ulcer is growing on my lower lips and i can't smile properly AT ALL. My braces cuts so easy and i can only do this or the guai lan face. i know u guys had enough of my stupid pout.

Fiendish

I sound really wicked and evil but i seriously i wished i was at control at more things.

"I hope that someday I'll be stuck in the back of your mind, and you'll be going crazy in the middle of the night. You won't be able to get comfortable or fall asleep because there will be a mistake you made years ago, and it's eating away at you. And you won't remember what that mistake was. But you'll be thinking of me at the same time, and how much you love me. And when you see me, you'll be frozen in your tracks. And I'll be able to walk through you like you do to me. And it will feel so good to be the one in charge. And when that day comes I will go home and close the door behind me and laugh uncontrollably. And I'll shake, and I'll cry as I laugh. And I'll be able to lay down on the persian rug and listen to some lovely music, and let my heart slow down and die. And it will all be perfect."

Apologeez

Imma sorry all i can blog now is about pinky cuz that's the only life i have i guess. :(
Anticipating the end of O levels! I am going NUTZ.
SIghss. Halloween party this weekend, join me? wheee c:

Inconsolable

Now even my dear pinky is not able to make me smile anymore. Totally running on low battery inside out. Yes I know i deserve it for not taking study break seriously, for treating it like a holiday. And any teachers reading this now will probably be laughing their ass off because i did not heed their advice because i skipped like thousands of lessons. Now i feel wasted and a disappointment to anyone who cares. Devoured by fear, and don't feel like talking anymore. Don't wanna be a joke more than what I already am.

Everyone just wanna fight to be the one on the top, and although they are all tired they won't give up the fight. It is making us all so cruel and egocentric...

I know its not a time to blog and rant. But am contemplating whether i should even be in school tomorrow, with all this, I would only make myself a shame in the hall tomorrow. Or maybe I should just be glad my panic attack showed mercy to me today? Will it do the same for me tomorrow?